lost my blog
alas, my blog of eight (8) years, is no more...or maybe no more temporarily. www.teerathyatra.com, i miss you. now that i think about it, it was the only "entity" i "talked" with. or, maybe, rather what would be the correct thing to say is, that i used it to, talk. to myself, to random people who might chance upon it...the universe. but most times, i used it to clear out my thoughts...to express. oh...i guess that kinda like talking haan...
just before i last accessed it, i had been thinking of posting something...it was kinda forming in my mind, and i thought that i will fully form it in the post. but when i clicked the log-in link, there was nothing. my bro, who maintains the blog, tried, but nothing.i do have the backup file, but i have no idea what to do with it. anyways, what i was thinking about posting was, realizations. there were quite a few in my mind, but then i couldn't access my blog, and for many days i mourned (no, i wasn't sad or anything, just...detached), and now i can hardly remember anything. but i will try and jot down whatever (realization) i can remember.
1. when feeling an intense emotion, like grief, sadness etc., praying helps. i did, and my inner voice said, "don't react. respond. with love." and almost immediately i felt light, and much better.
2. b blunt, the hair "studio", don't seem to be able to handle long hair well.
3. i am lost, and i don't care. i am lost, yet, i am at-home.
4. i have always maintained, nothing really does matter. so devotedly, and so lovingly i wrote, posted regularly on teerathyatra.com, for the past eight (8) years. and now i can't even access it. it ok. nothing matters.
just before i last accessed it, i had been thinking of posting something...it was kinda forming in my mind, and i thought that i will fully form it in the post. but when i clicked the log-in link, there was nothing. my bro, who maintains the blog, tried, but nothing.i do have the backup file, but i have no idea what to do with it. anyways, what i was thinking about posting was, realizations. there were quite a few in my mind, but then i couldn't access my blog, and for many days i mourned (no, i wasn't sad or anything, just...detached), and now i can hardly remember anything. but i will try and jot down whatever (realization) i can remember.
1. when feeling an intense emotion, like grief, sadness etc., praying helps. i did, and my inner voice said, "don't react. respond. with love." and almost immediately i felt light, and much better.
2. b blunt, the hair "studio", don't seem to be able to handle long hair well.
3. i am lost, and i don't care. i am lost, yet, i am at-home.
4. i have always maintained, nothing really does matter. so devotedly, and so lovingly i wrote, posted regularly on teerathyatra.com, for the past eight (8) years. and now i can't even access it. it ok. nothing matters.
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